“Try to laugh about it now but isn’t it funny how everything works out.” T Reznor
As I’m getting older I’m getting a lot more introspective about my past. Where I’ve been. What I’ve done. What I haven’t done. The one thought that keeps rolling through my mind is that I need to be more focused on the journey rather than focusing on what I did wrong in the past or what I need to do right in the future. “Live in the moment” is such a trite phrase, but there is a lot of truth in that. Focus on the things you can manage today – not the things you are worrying may happen tomorrow.
There have been so many times in my life where I’ve tried to wrestle my problems into submission rather than just politely handing them over to God and asking him to intercede on my behalf. This might be due to my bootstrapping nature or just being an American male that always has to “make it happen”. Whatever it is, it’s a huge waste of time and energy. God is going to show up no matter what. Like a friend of mine says “He’s always late but he’s always on time”. I know I need to focus more on what he’s doing in the moment rather than becoming frustrated because things aren’t moving fast enough.
Submission and obedience. Unfortunately for yours truly I’m not very good at either, but I’ve found life just works better when I practice those simple principles. God will answer us. Sometimes the answer is no. Sometimes it’s Absolutely Not. And then other times the doors open wide and we get exactly what we asked for. This side of heaven a lot of things can’t be explained and God’s sovereignty over certain situations in our lives is one of those for me. But the older I get and the more I try to actually listen to God and rest in his love, the more peace I seem to have in my life. And that’s a good thing.
The Adventure – Angels & Airwaves
Man to Man: God really only asks us to do two simple things – love him with all of our heart and love our neighbors as ourselves(and that includes spouses and children). Spread a little more love around and little less fear, disappointment, worry and doubt. I think you will like the response you get from those around you.
Today I hit the Town Lake Trail for the first time in a loooong time. Unfortunately, regular exercise has alluded me for some reason this past year and the extra 30 or so pounds I’m carrying right now show it. The cool thing about running for me is how refreshing it is for my brain. Sure, my body is getting a nice workout, but when I get out there on that trail all of my worries and the normal stresses of life just seem to disappear. At least, they usually do – unfortunately today was a little different.
There is a small thing in my life right now that is gnawing on me a little bit. It’s really fairly trivial in the grand scheme of life, but for some reason the past few days I’ve been really obsessing over it. At the end of the day it has to do with trust and if I’m honest, my lack of faith and patience that God will show up and provide.
For most of my life I’ve been extremely self-sufficient, which in the world’s eyes means that I generally take care of my own business with little to no help from any one else. I’ve been this way since I was a teenager and for the most part it has served me well. The downside to being so self reliant is that I have trained myself that I am the only one that can make things happen. That’s been a big lie in my life for a long time. Sure – I have to get up and facilitate my life but what I’m starting to learn is that God is in charge of the result – not me. Ultimately he is in complete control of my life – all of my fears and doubts as well as the victories and the joys.
So I’m running along this morning and I can’t seem to shake these negative thoughts about this specific situation. I’d run about a mile and that’s when I cross over the Lamar bridge to the other side of the river to begin the 2 mile journey back. As I got to the middle of the bridge I stopped and looked at the beautiful Austin skyline – I love my city. At the same time a song came on my headphones from Manchester Orchestra – one of my favorite bands. The main part of the chorus has a lyric that says “I give it to the ocean”. The rest of the lyrics are fairly meaningless but for some reason that phrase stuck out in my mind when thinking about this issue I’m anxious about. I started to think about how big God is. Obviously bigger than the ocean, but at the same time in complete control. Of everything.
As I was listening to the song, staring out over the water, I felt a peace come over me. The next thing I know, I literally raised my arm and fake threw my problem into the Town Lake – the closest thing to the ocean in Austin. I gave it to God(my big ocean) to deal with because it’s completely out of my control. And I’m so thankful for that.
The Ocean – Manchester Orchestra
Man to Man: If you feel anxious about something strap on your running shoes and go for a run. It doesn’t have to be long – just enough to get your heart rate up a little bit. I promise it will clear your mind and allow you to see things for what they really are – things that God can handle.